Fernando Torres has spoken of the painful way his career has gone from being a £50m goal machine to an out-of-favour bench player at Chelsea.
The Spaniard was regarded as one of the most feared strikers in the world during his time at Liverpool, but he soon drifted in to the Stamford Bridge shadows following his £50m switch to Stamford Bridge in January 2011.
And the 30-year-old admits it’s hard to come to terms with such a rapid decline.
He told MirrorFootball: “I understood nothing of what had happened.
“I started to get to know the bench. I reassured myself by saying things would soon change. Villas-Boas arrived, then Di Matteo but it was always the same: one day I played, the next not.
“To enter a match knowing you do not have the confidence of the coach. To play when you simply don’t have the habit of playing.
“Me, I felt bizarre, I had the feeling of getting tired quicker, of being heavier. I had no gas. You have to fight against a lot of things to get off the bench, sometimes even against yourself.”
And Torres also admits he misses the player he once was and still wonders where it all went wrong for him.
“Today, I am a different player but I am not going to lie to you: the player that I was, the one who started all the matches with a guaranteed place, I really miss sometimes,” he admitted.
“At one point, I even sat myself down to watch videos of my goals: I wanted to understand what I was doing before when I was scoring.
“I concluded that the only thing that had changed was the colour of the shirt. Everything is a question of adaptation to the playing style of a team. There are the styles which suit me well and others less – that is all.”