The forward has been behind Emmanuel Adebayor and Rafael van der Vaart in the pecking order at White Hart Lane this term, with sparing opportunities to play damaging his chances of going to Euro 2012 with England.
Defoe has spoken of his love for the club, but confessed his frustrations at not being able to play.
“I didn’t want to leave in January,” he stated in an interview with Mirror Football.
“I don’t go thinking, ‘I want to go to this club or that club.’ But in January I just wasn’t playing enough and I did go to the manager and ask to go out on loan.
“He said to me, ‘I don’t want you to go out on loan. We are trying to do something special here. Don’t go.’ And so I stayed. And I worked hard to keep myself sharp.
“But still I haven’t had that run of games. It still feels like I will only get a game if someone is injured or suspended.
“Sometimes I even feel like I’m in the youth team, because I know that, whatever I do in midweek, I won’t get a game at the weekend.
“The manager picks the team and I would never be disrespectful to the manager. But when someone doesn’t talk to you and explain what’s going on its hard.
“I love the club. Everybody knows that. When I’m out and people ask whether I am leaving I always say no. But how can I stay somewhere that I don’t get the chance to play?” Defoe confided.
By Gareth McKnight